Learn to trust yourself: A human design share

Last night, around 11pm, I laid awake, buzzing from the surprise caffeine in the brownie (no, not that kind of brownie), I ate earlier that night. It’s a snack I eat to keep my metabolism revved up throughout the day.

This was a completely unusual night, given that my typical night looks like:

can’t keep my eyes open for even a minute longer >>> head hits the pillow with a big ole grin on my face; so happy to feel my sheets on every square inch of my bod >>> and I’m out in less than 5 minutes

This is the blessing of being a Sacral Generator who almost always burns off all her energy before 10pm.

So laying there, I, of course, had to be productive (Generator) and began to think, “What’s tomorrow’s blog topic going to be?”

The first thing that popped into my head: The best thing I’ve learned in the last few years.

So here we go

The absolute best thing I’ve learned in the last few years, is how to recognize and follow (trust) my inner authority.

Every one of us humans possesses an inner authority. Mine just happens to be the best one for me. How so? If I had to wait a full lunar cycle/28 days (Lunar Authority) or if I had to wait until my emotional wave landed at neutral (Emotional Authority) in order to make decisions that are right and best for me, this impatient triple Aries would likely blow a gasket on a daily basis.

As I mentioned briefly above, our authority guides us in making decisions that are best and right for us.

Your human design authority will guide you in making the decisions that are best and right for you, in the ways it is best and right for you to make those decisions.

My authority (Sacral) is my absolute favorite of all 7 authorities which are:
Sacral
Emotional/ Solar Plexus
Splenic
Ego/ Heart
Self/ G
Environmental
Lunar

It’s my favorite because it informs me of my truth in the now. Patience with myself isn’t my strength, ‘member? When I slow down and receive my Sacral authority’s answer, it informs me, time and time again, moment by moment, decision by decision, which way to go, which way is right (aligned) for me.

Take this turn? Uh huh (Yes) or a pulling forward motion in my body
Choose this path? Uhn uhn (No) or a pulling away motion in my body
Buy this (whatever)? Uhn uhn (No)/ pulling away
Book this trip? Uh huh (Yes)/ pulling forward or toward
Say yes to this opportunity? Uhn uhn (No)/ pulling away
Stop avoiding this conversation and say what your heart is longing to say? Uh huh (YES!)/ pulling forward or toward/ opening/ expanding

To exercise your Sacral authority, “they” say to have people ask you yes or no questions. This type of question has one of three answers:

/yes/ : Which in the case of the Sacral response, will sound like a guttural “Uh huh”, or any sounds other than distinct words that convey that inner Mmhm.

/no/: Which in the case of the Sacral response, will sound like a guttural “Uhn uhn”, or any sounds other than distinct words that convey that inner wrong answer.

/not now/: This feels like a brief void, a space where the “uh huh” or “uhn uhn” has not shown up yet.

Yes, this helps, but what I’ve found most helpful (as people aren’t always around) is to listen to my body’s non-vocal response— which for me, doesn’t always come with a vocal uh huh or uhn uhn. I get a feeling, an internal yes (lightness/expansion/pulling forward) or no (heaviness/contraction/pulling away). It’s an embodied “Yes, this is for me”, “No, it’s not”, “We’re not quite sure yet”.

My body has the intel and she shares it with me as often as I’m in my body and out of Autopilot. The more I’m in my body and out of my head, the more clearly I receive the guidance to do (or not do) as she directs, and the more aligned I remain with the path that’s meant for me.

Hearing from my inner authority and doing (or not doing) as she leads are two different things entirely. When I hear from her AND follow her guidance, my days are quite remarkable. Like right now for instance, I feel my body guiding me to stop writing, to get up and move, as I’ve been sitting in this chair, albeit comfy chair, for about the last 30 minutes. My authority knows what’s best for me, so I’m going to go play some music and have a dance. Brb.

I’m back and feeling a fair amount of anxiousness. The last thing I want to do is infuse this blog post with anxiousness, so off I go to listen to all the nudges my body is delivering. Brb.

Ahh. Much better. With music ringing in my ears that typically brings me great joy, I asked myself, “Does this feel good?” Uhn uhn was the answer. Airpods be gone. I needed silence.

Then I asked myself, “Does it feel good to stay in the house?” Uhn uhn was the clear answer. So I went outside to grab a few things from the car. Oh what a Generator.

Being aware of and trusting my body’s wisdom wasn’t always possible for me. Years of trauma and decades of rehearsing the trauma responses that followed the devastating losses and emotional neglect of my childhood, shut me down completely.

Yet, little by little in the last 7 years, I’ve relearned what it looks and feels like to receive trustworthy messages from my body. I’ve learned to deeply trust my inner authority. To trust, me.

If you don’t yet know your human design authority, you can find out very easily by going to a free human design chart generator like my friend Missy’s: Human Design Decoded.

Learning to recognize, follow, and trust your inner authority takes loads of practice. No matter how you go about it, please immerse yourself in plenty of grace and self-compassion. Long-standing patterns of self-betrayal can only be reversed with heaping doses of self-forgiveness and self-love.

Cheering you on as always!
Sabrina